Mid-life crisis

finally realise what i have been feeling...they call it mid-life crisis. It is at a stage where you have achieved some success and you should be feeling satisfied but instead, you are left wondering whether you really want to do this for the rest of your life..what is it that i want to achieve that would be long-lasting..at this moment, i don't think i am looking for accummulation of wealth, but rather, what i can do that would leave a mark when i am long gone...would i be able to face my Maker, give an account of my life? or would i be ashamed of how i have used my life and talents? It is time to shift from success to significance....

Stephen Covey says in his book, The 8th Habit,
When you engage in work that taps your talent
that fuels your passion
that rises out of a great need in the world
that you feel drawn by conscience to meet
therein lies your voice
your calling
your soul's code

thinking about making new year resolutions

shall i even try to think about new year resolutions? surely it is going to be a waste of time. everyone has gone down the isle of new year, all fired up about their resolutions only to forget all about it a few weeks later. But not making resolutions is like giving up on 'me'.
Seriously, it is time to consider what do i really want from my life as a teacher and where i am heading. If we want to get somewhere, but don't know where or don't know what we want or what we do best, we are going to end up nowhere. And I don't want to look back and regret...
Norman Vincent Pearle, in his anthology, Courage and Confidence says
You must fix on a goal, then sharpen and clarify it. Hold it in your conscious mind until it sinks by a process of intellectual and spiritual osmosis into your subconscious. Then, you will have it because it will have you, all of you. You will begin to move toward that goal on a direct road; not a vague 'somewhere', but to a definitive, specific objective. To this must be added enthusiasm, persistence, and hard work.

Life is short

Hubby called and told me that Mr Cheng, his computer expert, has passed away after a heart attack. He was only 43. I saw him last when he came to my home to fix the internet lines. He had spent the whole day with us. Difficult to imagine that i will never see him again. Hubby has lost two colleagues this year due to heart attack, both in their early forties. Leaving behind wife and young children to fend for themselves. To think that sometimes we spend our time arguing and fighting over trivial things, knowing that we might not see each other again. Life is indeed short. What did I learn? Don't postpone your happiness...don't postpone the things you want to say to each other or to your loved ones...don't put off the things you really want to do, thinking that you would pursue it when you retire, when the kids are bigger, when the kids have finished their education, when......